Do I have to leave a title? Do I really need to come up with a title for a blog post that I don’t know what it will be about yet? Since I am here answering questions I suppose I will make this post about questions.
We all have them. How many do we actually ask? How many do we find answers to.
i have spent the last four years trying to heal from some things that happened to me. I thought I was doing good. I thought I was doing great. However, a year ago I began to get depressed. Or was I down? I didn’t know. I often wondered and asked myself, “am I depressed?” More questions would eventually arise. Was I a good mother? What was my purpose? Why do I bother? Why dream? Why hope? The questions would just keep coming. The more questions I asked the worse I seemed to get. I had a problem. I wasn’t really looking for answers. I had questions with no answers. And that just made things worse. Then I pushed them aside.
Recently I decided to find some answers to my questions. One answer was needed to one question I failed to ask. Was I healed? Or. How was my healing going? I didn’t even know that was a question available to me. I found it when I was trying to figure something else out. To answer another question: “was I depressed?” Or maybe it was: “what is wrong with me?”
Finding the right question leads to the needed answers. Following that requires patience and effort in believing and applying what is learned. We need to ask questions. We need to find answers. We need to keep trying.
As I learn new questions and find more answers I get to become a better person. A better mother. A happier person. Something everyone can be, and sometimes it just starts with one question.